the pictures speak for itself.:)
(my blocmates, HStropa,friends)

My first week was devastating. I even cursed school and promised my self never to return again. But guess what? the wheel turned. My mood swing, and the most important thing is coming my way--Adjustment.


I jumped into conclusion once more, and it made me really sad. But, when I look over my school day now, I found it exciting (than ever), dramas and actions are in, kilig moments, fun times with my blocmates and having the most out of being young and pioneer of our course.



I don't know what happened but I just found my self enjoying every bit of my stay. Even though some people are rude to me (ahem!) and some stuffs frustrates me, like having low scores in English in a row and it was my favorite subject and I'm an ABCOM student (what a shame!). But, ang nakakatuwang part, I have high scores in MATH!woah!it's a mirakol(i know!).


Now, I'm thinking twice if I would go to UP or I'll stay in Letran. To tell you, it's really hard (and it's only two weeks after the first encounter). Whatever decision I'll have, I promise to tell YOU.:)




tee hee,
HAPPY and contented.
xXpaperdoll__x)





PS:
the english for: "PANG ILANG PRESIDENTE SI ERAP?!" is
"what is ERAP's standing in the precidency list?"
nice.:)ble!i got it.LOL.

Back when I was in third year, I always tell myself, and everyone I could talk to, "Kahit san, wag lang sa letran." but little did i know, I couldn't plan for my self. And beyond the open window of my future, Letran is just a part of it.

The mere fact that UP rejected me three times in a row made me got so disappointed and I really felt that sadness in my life. I felt that I was a trash and I mean nothing here on earth. But, until now, UP is still one of my hopes and part of my dream. And it's also one of the reason why I'm in Letran.


In my first day, I really felt bad. I have something in me that though that person is nice, I felt irritated by the people's presence. Adjusting is something that time only can give and that's what I'm waiting him (time) to reward me. My first week is a hustle. Struggle. Stress. And hopefully, this second one, would offer something different.

Let's just wait and see.

"Pengeng piktur comment!"

are you crazy!Appreciation is never asked. It is given by people who thinks you did gave a pretty good photo. In posting this, and flooding in Friendster bulletin makes you dumb. Appreciation is like trust, it is gained and not given or asked. In begging for one is like, bragging what kind of photos you produce.GRR!

my friends. never do what they are doing.


P.S: piktur comment ko ah?LOL.

shadows.

Yesterday, I went to Robinson and nagpapicture ako ng 1x1. end of story. LOL. Actually, it's a good thing, I wasn't afraid to look and be with strangers any more. Before, I usually, don't go alone, because I hardly face people I don't know. I'm shy. I'm definitely distant to them. But, guess what, I was feeling normal and I just took everything so light without worries and the things I used to feel.

Moreover, after I got the pictures in y hands, I just saw my self walking towards nowhere until I just saw the picture, I was already at the UP gate. I was alone. I walked all the way from crossing (LB) to VEGA. I never did realized I was walking alone. I just kept on walking and I never felt tired.

Perhaps, unlike other people, walking is one of my therapy. In that way, I released my stressed and my "unpeaceful" mind. I was thinking many things and that walk gave me time for my self alone. I was thinking about what the future may bring and I remembered the song "Pasan".

Actually, I hate CallaLily's video. But, I love how the song relates to the "Foot prints on the sand." Maybe, If I could see just a pair of foot prints along the way, tumakbo na ako!ha!simentokaya un!LOL. Kidding aside, I know, in each walk in my life, I'm not alone.

When I reached VEGA, I went back home, but I felt differently. You should try walking.:)

overload~!

"AYOKO na mag college!" I was repeating this statement over and over as I wait for my one thirty class. "Nde na ako papasok bukas!"


Since I was a kid, I <3 first day of classes. I meet my friends I never saw for two months, I have new things (bags, clothes, notebooks, books etc.), I saw my teachers again, new level of life, new struggles. BUT! not until I faced my first day of school to COLLEGE.


The night before, I was rolling my bed for about 152 times and more. I hardly sleep since natutulog ako usually at one in the morning and those things that "might happen tomorrow" devastates me. I am afraid of meeting new people. New environment (kahit sabi ko, I wanted to have a new one) and of course, whole new different life. I went to bed about nine and slept at 01am. I woke up 5am and was waiting for my alarm clock to ring...SILLY.


...and at last!It did rang!I stood up from bed and fix my self. This time, I didn't prepare much for my outfit (no money.T.T) and I did just wear my usual jean at shirt with that big "piggy" bag.


MY heart starts pounding when I was sitting on the jeepney and it lasted until I reached Letran and stopped when I met Jess,my block mate.


I was so excited to meet all of my block mates (and was hoping to spot a cutie) but it was the least of what I expect that happened. (kala nio ha, we're just staring.HAHA).

It frustrates me a lot when my first and second class professors didn't showed up. Nakatunganga lng kme in our room while waiting in vain for nothing. It was really, and really, really, disappointing. T.T


A professor came when nung Filipino na. But, the problem was, there was a conflict of rooms, at the other row, was the third year or four yr student whose subject is Art Appreciation and we, Filipino. Their Prof came and we don't have a choice but to go out.


Being there outside, we were like nomads. We all don't know where we are going or what. We went up the fourth floor for about five times just looking where the heck is our room. Jess decided to go to the Dean's office and there we met a professor saying out loud.. "Nawawala mgastudyate ko!" and yes, it was our Filipino prof.


We went up and down four floors looking for a vacant room and thirty minutes before the bell rang, we found one, at the top and it was really small for the whole ABComm Students, but hey!better than being "squaters" (as our English prof told us).


It was very disappointing. And that time, I just told my self, "Tama na ang lokohan. Gsto ko ng mag HS ule!" but, of course, life goes on...and on...


Our last but the longest (five hours class!) IT, I guess you know what that is, was the one normal for the day except that we are 42 in class, 14 students na nag sesemenaryo, seven third year Economics students and the rest are the ABCOm. But, It was been fun. Jess found a new cutie na nagsesemenaryo!HAHA.kamusta?!sayang tlga. Then I found one in my class, but laging mei kasamang girl, GF ata. AWTS.


the only good thing that happened is that, I saw my friends again!After months of being out of school, having some time for my self(times that I am alone), meet so many different faces (nakalimutan ko name nila!HAHA.) and found a new friend, named FAYE.



P.S.
i named my post "overload because of the cheesy fries overload Rafi and I (nakakalungkot. dalwa lng kme nag lunch) ate. And it consumed as much as 100php.GRR!naubos pera nmen.T.T


P.S.S.
Jess is Jessica Gonzales. ...nasanay lng:)

ABCOMMtrivia(na nde ko pa nasasagot!GRR!sagutan nio HA!)
engeshin nio ang: PANG ILANG PRESIDENTE SI ERAP!?
gee...none of us got the answer.xD





tee-Hee,paperdoll
------>curently...STRESSED out!>:(

cheers!

Today, my summer would be officially over, and tomorrow, my life would turn and pages of a whole new book would be opened. I'm stepping to life's new journey--being a college student.

Goodbye! banjing times, gimiks,highschool dramas, physics, green uniform, ten peices notebooks, tons of books, intermediate pads, class cards, tables and mono block chairs.

See you again, CSI, and GOD bless.

Hello! Letran, New sets of people and a lot of mystery that would unfold.

We'll meet again, UP.;)

Cheers!In hours time, I'm going to be, a College student. ^_^\/~paperdoll.

i'll raise my hands to you!

<----vampire! i so HEART him. It's not just the picture. not just the shades and that stupid pretty face, it's him, basically. And I did wanted to be a vampire someday (when I already know how to.LOL)

I’ve a plan if you are willing
We’ll take on all the ends of the world
A toast, we’re celebrating
No one’s around
We’re on our own...

And because of that, I remember the binyag I went in last fifteen. (Rafi's day). Sobrang saya. And If I had bring sum ndies, I should have been there and partied with my so called, "departmeties".

That song was played nung nandun cla sa stage and like, partying while mei fire hose sa taas na binabasa cla. I'm enjoying seeing them, but I know it would be alot more fun being there, in that exact place.

I could't imagine, I would be staying in that place for elike a year and last night, I was remenicing abou my high school days, second year much. And, I did thought of some crazy and stupid plan. I promise, I won't do it. (hands crossed at my back.LOL)

I'm going to miss CSI, and of course, the poeple there. Most specially, the memories. awts.so much drama.

I'll raise my hands to you!:)

Arrrrrriba! x________x

Being a UP student for a day.

I felt pang when I saw the big crowd afar while walking with Xai and honesty, I was asking my self, "Bakit ko ba naisipang pumunta dito?"

yesterday, it was the UP Freshmen Campus Tour. It not in my plan to go there. I didn't even wanted at first because it was father's day. But, I just saw my self walking though the grounds of Up and feeling like one of those UP students.

It didn't made a different feeling. I mean, being with them for a day didn't make me stop a while and think that, "hey!I'm with UP students!" NAH! I just felt like, Hey!I'm with unfamiliar faces!HAHA.

It was funny tagging along with them, while they look for their room and schedule. It's so exhausting, especially for me who is wearing heels. Just imagine my three inches sandals going around the entire UP campus plus my weight, and plus the weather. Heck, what am I saying?

It's a good experience anyway.:)

I received a comment a while a go in my friendster account, and it was a poem!Someone made a poem for me. I don't actually know her, but thanks!whoever you are!xD

here's the poem. I think it's sarcastic in a way.

oh look at her in her paper dress
i wonder why she wont burn..?
she just a paperdoll that all
just a paperdoll...
i dress her up she knock's me down....
they try her own for size she fits nice
one sizes fits all.....

EIGHT NGA BA?

Regrets never crossed my mind. From the time I decided to stay at csi, when i got my new friends, once I strong-willed to hold on to them, as I shared the part of me with the best eight(?) people that passed my life.

Last night was really unexpected. Every thing got clear before me and it’s the time na nag sink in saken, that I love my buddies. Kagabi ko lng narealize, mas mahal ko pa pla sila sa inaakala ko.

I don’t know how it started but, we’re just touching the keypad of our cell phone, then suddenly, we were like five people talking at one place in a time. I was texting them and our entire topic is about our friendship. Then, it just came out that we just shared what we felt and nag sabihan kme ng thak yous.

Hindi ko alam how all started but one thing I knew was, joy is filling spaces in my heart. I can’t imagine na lahat kme, with different personalities just made a clique filled with love.

Now, I know, and I’m sure nakht we’ll all part ways this school year, we would still be the same group we used to be. Because I know, we love one another so much, that we’re not willing to give up everything in the future.

<3 you, guys! (sure.you know who you are.)

YuKi
status: LAZY.tamad.sleephead.

for about couple of weeks, here's yuki. the lazy one. HAHA. I didn't updated, though I really wanted and I have thoughts in mind to share with you because for one reason:I'm too lazy to function.


I don't know. I feel like, mxadong nag coconsume ng time ang typing and say stuffs. And ako? I always forgot what I wnated to write. Parang umihip lang ang hangin and tah-ah!I'm empty.

...JUST LIKE NOW.sigh.T______T

not the next doll but the designer to be.

I really waited for the search for the next doll last Tuesday evening, though my father told me to sleep early because I have an entrance exam the next day. Okay. I wasn't expecting Chelsea to win. I know she lacks the dancing skills. But, though, I really, really, wanted her to. But, she didn't.

Asia won.

But, I was still happy. She need it. And she was a single mom.sigh.she loves her daughter so much that she wanted her to grew up strong. and guess what, she's only 18.

But, Jeffrey won! WooOh! and if he didn't I can't accept that!HAHA.i rili loved his collection. The polkadots. stripes. really awsome.

here's his collection:

i'm not busy. my schedule it just tight.

Siting in front of the computer makes my heart jump. I never done siting in front of you, this long now. I've been faced with a tight schedule.



And for all you know, after the whole week. It left a stressed, exhausted, excited, frustrated, hoping, YUKI.




My week started too fast, that it started Friday. We went swimming. And that was the best way of exhausting your self. You won't even know you're being tired of doing that especially with people very special to you.




Saturday.
Because I got an additional money from my mother. It's time for my favorite hobby--SHOPPING! but,hell. We went around the mall for hours and I went home with one top and a pair of shoes. great. I spend almost the whole day walking and to be drop dead on my bed, and I only got two pieces. But, it's was a blessing anyway.




Sunday.
I'm really tired from last night (we went home late) and guess what? I need to wake up at six in the morning and prepare my self to got to bulacan. We left the house at eight and we arrived there at twelve!I hardly control my self when we were near the place. I wanted to puke, and who will not if you'll be travelling for four hours, straight?oh,gawd. it was really tiring.




Way back, four hours drive again. But this time, I wasn't to dizzy and bored, though it's raining outside and the airconditon freezes me. I entertained my self by looking though the billboards. HAHA.i love seeing those big stuffs. And look through the poses.




besides being exhausted, I was sad. Gusto Kong magpaiwan. I want to have time with my cousins again. You see, I was the only one parted from them, so when we see each other, we wanted have longer time together. gawd. that was really depressing.




Monday.
W went home last Sunday night at eleven in the evening and I need to wake up early again and go to Letran to schedule my exam. Right after it, I went to school to help Bianca with the year book.well, I'm not sure if what I did helped her.HAHA.




Tuesday.
All I did was to study.HAHA.not rili. I'm kidding,ayt?I stayed at home and just rested. Awts. It was the best day of the week.




Wednesday.
I woke up really early again. Awts. I hate waking up so early. I had an entrance exam in Letran for about four hours. awts. it's killing me. I don't wanted to be right there. I wanted to go out. I don't want to have any exam.HMFT.




Skipping to FRIDAY.
We were back in Alabang again searching for the best Cocktail dress ever. We searched the whole five hours there, and found nothing.

we actually went out of that mall having nothing but stepping in our have having something.

magic.HAHA.

we passed by an Ukay2 and guess what?It has the perfect dress were looking all day!haha.All along, we were struggling to buy an eight hundred worth of dress, and good thing we didn't purchased that, for we saw a 150php dress in the UK.haha.




SATURDAY.
yeah.the best time of the life.
I've finished assessing my papers. All we need is to pay the fees and I'm enrolled!yahoo!I'm really excited for the next good things to come. I know, I've been depressed not spending my days at UP, but I know, Letran would offered something to me. Maybe not better, but the best.