THIS ONE IS HEART BREAKING

i saw this as a bulletin in friendster by one of my close friends.

PREPARE YOUR SELF. this actually made me cry:


When you were 8 years
old, your mom handed you an ice
cream. You thanked he r by dripping it
all over your lap.


When you were 9 years old, she paid for
piano lessons. You thanked her by
never even bothering to practice.


When you were 10 years old she drove
you all day, from soccer to football
to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the
car and never looking back.


Whe n you were 11 years old, she took
you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a
different row.


When you were 12 years old, she warned
you not to watch certain TV shows. You
thanked her by waiting until she left
the house.


Wh en you were 13, she suggested a
haircut that was becoming. You thanked
her by telling her she had no taste.


When you were 14, she paid for a month
away at summer camp. You thanked her by
forgetting to write a single letter.


When you were 15, she came home from
work, looking for a hug. You thanked
her by having your bedroom door locked.


When you were 16, she taught you how
to drive her car. You thanked her by
taking it every chance you could.


When you were 17, she was expecting
an important call. You thanked her by
being on the phone all night.


When you were 18, she cried at your
high school graduation . You thanked
her by staying out partying until dawn.


When you were 19, she paid for your
college tuition, drove you to campus
carried your bags. You thanked her by
saying good-bye outside the dorm so you
wouldn't be embarrassed in front of
your friends.


When you were 25, she helped to pay
for your wedding, and she cried and
told you how deeply she loved you. You
thanked her by moving halfway across
the country.


When you were 50, she fell ill and
needed you to take care of her. You
thanked her by reading about the
burden parents become to their
children.An d then, one day, she
quietlydied.



And everything you never did came
crashing down like thunder on YOUR
HEART..

YOUTH FOR JESUS!

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THIS POST AND THE OTHER THREE ARE FROM MY MULTIPLY ACCOUNT AGAIN. C:
visit it at: http://yauxtero.multiply.com/
Posted by yuki on Jan 14, '08 8:23 AM for everyone

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WOOOH~!

(pictures in the gallery...see yah there!c:)

This is great. No. This is better than GREATNESS!

Nag start na un gaming cell group. And yess, it was beyond greatness. We’ve talked about everything—even out deepest and darkest side. I promise!

We started like 2:30 and ended at 5:30. grabe. Time really flies when we enjoy, right?

I don’t want to sound like very religious (for some may think its only words) but, actually, I really felt God was there. He is in the midst of us as we do our cell group and that time I spent with the group talking about our spiritual life, it’s all worth it. IT’S ALL WORTH IT!

I can’t wait for next time (on Friday! I wish we can do it everyday!really!).

This really great. Masaya na ung cell group namen streghthen our friendship and as the quote I remember says, TRUE FRIENDS DON’T LET FRIENDS GO TO HELL.

Are you a TRUE FRIEND?

Stop being selfish.
Do something!

MY FRUSTRATIONS...

Believe me or not, I am a frustrated singer when I was younger. Like, when I was fifteen. LOL!XD actually, I was when I was about eight to nine or even seven unto six. Around that age.

I remember pa that time na uso pa ang cassette tapes, I usually, sing and record my voice and send it to my mother in Japan. I was always singing April Boy Regino’s hit songs (now, you could just imagine how baduy I was back then.haha) and some animae song like,

Tato…ni ana shita ni nomo..BLA.BLA (tama ba? Basta, ung sa voltes five.)

And ung sa doemon, I am always singing them, and the end of the recording, I would sing the super “gas-gas” song…

Mama, I love you…
Mama, I care…
Mama, I need you…
Mama, oh, yeah.

And it ends my little show. Back then, kala ko, kahit sino ka man, pede kang kumanta but when I got into my senses that only people who are gifted with nice voice are the only once who has the “right to sing”, I quit my ever frustration.

If you thought it ends there… you’re dead wrong!

I was also a frustrated artist. I would always sit in the terrace and draw anything I wanted and then one day, I did draw something that looked like a thing. Kasi, nuon, kahit anung idrawing ko—puno, tao, tiger, pusa.. they all looked like an ipis.. pero, iba tlga to.

I tried copying a shoes. A giant shoes in one of the page of my book. Then, saw stunned when it turned looking a like.

“Tatay!Tatay!tiganan mO!” I was really proud of it and showed it to my grand father (I call him Tatay.) and he just smiled at me. I was so happy.

Since then, I never stopped drawing. I draw almost everything. Siguro kulang nalang, i-drawing ko ung sarili ko. And since then, drawing nalang ung sinesend ko kay mama. This time, my frustrations turned fine. Super saya! C:

About writing, it also started something like my singing and my drawing—a desire. When I read the story my friend made back in sixth grade, I was so jealous! My work was a disaster but just before that, I have a short story made for my Reading class in fifth grade but I lost my notebook. It was in the moment I’ve read my friend’s piece when I told my self, Nakagawa na ako ng ganayan. Nawala lang. I want to do more of that. I want to write to!

So, everyday, sulat ako.. but not literal, I type in in the computer all the stuffs and save them, nde pa uso friendster so, and use lng ng computer is to type, print and to look at it and bore your self just looking at the screen.

This is the best frustration I had. As in after it, ito ung naging passion ko… writing is the best thing God gave me for when I write, I am at ease. I feel really at home.HAHA!

So, GTG na. this post is taking me like forever, Napasarap sa pag reminisce. Wala pa akong dream book!OMG!lagot!wala pa din akong research draft sa ComA.. OH.!blag!blag! ayoooko nap la mag bukas.LOL.

G”NAYT…

Pero, nde pa tulog.

Naglalaba pa ako..walang uniform (good thing, mei washing na lalagay mo lng tas, pag tumunog, sampay na!I LOVE TECHNOLOGY!lol)

I think am just hang around the net—sa PEX!haha.

~am outta here.~yukiiiii

i AM EXCITED~!!

I’m really, really, excited for tomorrow.

Last January 11, 2008—we have no ComArts kasi may Mass. When the rest of my friends said na ayaw nila mag mass because most of us are Born-Again, I was a little bit, hesitant to go. Pano, we were like, ten steps away from the chapel and I was also hoping, at the back of my mind, Red might be there (departmental kasi.) but, I chose to follow my friends and the rest was history.

Habang papunta dun sa canteen, we’re recalling the worship songs we’re singing in church and because of that, a little crazy, no, it’s not crazy… Replace it by amazing. A little BIG amazing idea slip off JP’s mouth: “Gawa kea tayo ng cell group!”

And yesss, tomorrow is the day we booked to be the first day of our cell group. We have each a different task.

JP-opening prayer

Arlene-Worship leader

Cathy-game master (for ice breaker, though feeling ko, hindi nmen kaylangan nun.HAHA~)

Moubee-for an inspiring message.

Closing prayer-no other than, ME~!

I am really excited. As in. Sobrang saya ko na this time, I can serve the Lord fully. And in a way, I am enjoying because I was with my friends. C:

Then, the ball will pass.. magiging Opening prayer ako then, worship leader. HAHA! Omg.. me singing?

I AM TALKING TO WILL DEVAUGHN RIGHT NOW!siryoso~

CARDIAC ARESSSSST!

omg. my heart's beating twice as fast as it gets when I talk with someone I like.HAHA~ I'm going to tell the story later (when we finish talking. OMG.)


I HARDLY BELIEVE THIS!


inhale.exhale.

*UPDATES:*

I was scanning through the internet. Wala lang then, a friend suddenly approached me about a site bla.bla. I opened it, and tada! Mei conference pla with will devaughn.

ME: Will? No. I hardly believe this! Is this for real?

Nhguaved (name nia dun. binaliktad na devaughn)

WILL: Its really me! I told ya i would visit the site .

at hnde ko alam un. bago lng ako pumasok, db? so, am totally CLUELESS.

WILL:Wow this is really amazing! I cant believe almost everything is on this site. Wait now riza almost knows everything i said...nahiya ako!! hahahaha

ME: oh, now ur shy...Okay. I’ll pretend that I believe you.

Sorry. nde tlga ako naniniwala. It's so hard to believe!HAHA~

WILL: Its really me i promise!

ME: oh?so where's Riza?

WILL:I just tried to call riza but it said " the number you are trying to reach is either unattended or out of coverage area " . Alam ko mayroon siyang vtr sa ortigas area kanina. Ill try again in a few mins. Yiheee!!

ME: yiheee. She’s a busy person.

His replies are taking forever... as in. mga five minutes or something. Then, every girl in the site floods. They’re all sure that he was Will because his manager talked to one of them and said he’ll take a visit. It was only then when I convinced my self na s’ya nga un. So, I posted straight in my multiply… matagal din naman siya mag reply.

Un ungnakita niong post ko.. this one. and i'm just updating now.



WILL:sorry ive been trying to catch up on the threads ive missed. haha. Hoffnung alles is ok means i hope all is ok. and ummm....hmmm what else...passt auf sich selbst auf means take care of yourself. Still dont believe it me ?


nag german pa s'ya. nde ko nman maintindihan.XD


ME: No. i do believe na.HAHA.ooh. you're looking up... to find something there?HAHA.


WILL:you think i would backtrack to fish info? I would never do such a thing . haha.


ME: AHAHA,owyeah.yur doing it so...



LASWATSERA: ASAP tomorow?


may iba pang tao dun sa site.. nde lng ako.. nde ko na nilagay ung post nila.. baka kc ma flooed and am afraid to fill all the space.haha.


AND AFTER million light years... as in it took hi like thirthy minutes or less . Hnde nman
mahirap mag hintay. I do some other things while waiting like friendster and stuff.

WILL:Pasensiya para sa mahabang...hintay? Tama ba yan? haha. My tagalog is so bad im sorry. Im trying to catch up a bit with all of the threads and videos. All i can say is, beautiful. Once again i have this huge smile on my face . Unfortunately, no asap for me tomorrow but i heard they will be airing the bday party concert of Sharon Cuneta bukas so if you have time look out for me. Si riza mayroong siyang guesting sa asap bukas

I didn't responed. Umalis kasi ako sa harap ng computer and ate. super starving na.

WILL:Ah i could stay on here and chat or ask you all a hundred questions but i must eat na. hehe. Im so payat na dba? Once again everyone i want to thank you for all of this again. This amazing experience is continuing bc of you. I will visit as much as i can to keep you posted.

ME: oh.. yess. you must be hungry. you eat na. I'm done eating. [a firgure that can't appear here!hmft.]


WILL:I promise to return soon. Ill stop by tomorrow again alrighty? So until next time everyone. Bu bye!! .


WILL:thanks guys . Magandang gabi sa inyo lahat! Ill text riza before i sleep. Yiheee!! haha. Sleep tight everyone!


Hnde na ako nag react. HAHA. I was too lazy to do so.. and, I don't know what else to say... ahh!yes, I did say, GUD BYE. TEKK KER.haha. XD


Anyway, sobrang wala tong sense, alam ko. nagulat lng tlga ako.


Tama nga, na in the most unexpected moment, there' something unexpected happens. HAHA! nde ko naman maxdong gusto si will. I was just... shocked!really. super.


so, that's it. I've told you the whole thing. It's my time to rest, mei church pa tomorow and jers promised me he'll come. I wish he ready do.



G'NATY EVERYONE! c:
God Bless.


YUKI ANNE (like how my mother call me. she's the only one who call me that way c: miss you, mama c: mwush.)

AGAIN, I WANT TO CLEAR THIS OUT:

NDE AKO BUNTIS. LOL.HAHA.kidding.

NO, just wanna clear that the first nine post are delayed post. They're from my multiple site because I am lame and stupid---I forgot my password here.HAHA.(shirk in shame.XD)

Anyhow, i don't wanna dissolve this blog site so, iposted them all to cope with the looost times.

I MISS MY BLOG! (hugs the computer.haha)

I MISS YOU!YOU!YOU,MY BLOGGG.

i won't let you die. I promise.HAHA~ XD

basta, this is still my closet. my crib. my blog. my life.

xoxo,
yuki---the torn and repaired paperdoll. ahihi. XD

F.A.B

Posted by yuki on Jan 11, '08 8:26 AM for everyone

FRIENDSAREBROTHERS.

BABAY NA :'C

Posted by yuki on Jan 9, '08 8:33 AM for everyone

grabe.gusto ko tlga umiyak.


Our prof sa PE na si Ma'am MILDRED NAKAMURA ay leaving the country obviously, sa Japan..and for good. Dun na sila forever (except ata sa mga visit). This saddens me alot.


Nung isang araw, may nagbalita saken about her, leaving. Nalungkot nga ako because she didn't say her good byes to me.


Ma'am Nakamura isn't just a prof to me. She is my mentor. My disciplinary officer. She is the only person that made me tuck-in my PE t-shirt every PE day. She's the person who laughs at my korniest jokes. The one who gave me a lot of plus points in time that I needed them. SHE IS A MOTHER TO ME.


Sobra. naiiyak ako. grabe. I can't believe na may ganitong moment. Gusto ko ng umiyak nung niyakap ko s'ya. Last taym na nmin magkikita kanina. I love her tlga. Super. Na homesick na kasi ung son niya and magsschool na. I hate it.


I feel bad na aalis na si Ma'am. Pero, ung mga bagay that I've learned from her, nde na maalis sakin yun. Forever ko un dadalhin. ='c


von voyage, Ma'am Nakamura.

MAHAL KITA AT LAHAT NG BUMUBUO NG CZ2 and DZF2!

PS.
kasama ka ba sa mga sections na yun?
e-mail ma'am at: joy_monami@yahoo.com

MY HEROINE~

Posted by yuki on Jan 9, '08 8:20 AM for everyone

MY VERY OWN HEROINE:
FAYE VERGARA
hair clips.forlder.napkins.wet tissues.MENTOS.money.quizes.---at iba pa. faye provide them all. you're my heroine,faye!tunay!tenks sa lahat c:

sugar, spice and everything nice

Posted by yuki on Jan 8, '08 8:18 AM for everyone

IMAGINE:

You're wearing your school uniform. Matching it was a two-inches-shoes. With five people with you. Going around a mall. Lakad dito. lakad doon. Tawa dito, tawa doon. tawa pa. at tawa tlga. Maglaro in arcades and went back and forth in Crossing Calamba. Your foot is soring but unfortunately, there's no band-aid available. It's hurt a lot. You want to sit, but there's no chair available.


Just imagine how awful I was in, pero, super lakad parin ako. This morning nga, I got this wound. Natusok ako ng karayom..as in pasok na pasok. Parang three points shot sa basketball. Good Shoot.


Why?!


I just sewed my old shoes! Medjo, nasasalita na sya eh, so I sewed it. Unfortunately, it didn't work when I was in school alreay. HAHA. i know that was a stupid plan, pero, I'm desperate. Tatlo kc ung black shoes sa bahay--the one na super flat and two edgy two-inches black shoes. NO MORE CHOICE. my foot sores so much from what I did yesterday... but, IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE.


Yesterday (January 07 2008--didn't have time to post this kasi, I was so as in SO tired) was Jessica Gonzalez' birthday! It's not just any other birthday.. it's her eighteen years in this earth!


We went to Wlatermart to eat and do arcade. waha. It was really FUN! then when we went back dun sa apartment ni jessie, we ate cake, ice cream and lots of chip! grabee. FOOD OVERLOAD!!


I know, sasabihin niyo, it so simple lng. It childish and all. But, you see, the simplest things in the life is the one most treasured. Kasi, there makikita mo na even in little things, basta, you're with someone you enjoys the company and love, there's no way you won't enjoy.


Moreover, inabot kami ng 8:00PM sa tapat ng Jolibee just to talk. (ako-Jessie-Jers. JP needs to attend practise, Faye, nica and raffi and co. went home, Tini is in SM Sta. Rosa. Song-song is absent)

We talked about the issue I never talked about with my HS barkada---LOVE<3. I can't recall one time na napagusapan namin to. The Love that pertains to Boy-Girl relationship and our talk went on and on and on. Our mouths just can't controlled and just shut. It's one of the convos I love.


In the latter part of that, nagkatuwaan kaming mag group ng boys into categories (ung mga dumadaan na stujante ng letran ang aming napagtripan!haha)


SHRIMP/HIPON=a guy na macho. Pero, masarap tanggalin ang ulo kasi..HAHA.baaaad!

LITCHON=ang lalaking pogi na patpatin.XD

ISDA=macho + pretty face

PANIS= pretty face MINUS good body= NOTHING.X-o


i know, it's kinda mean..pero, super saya tlga nito.HAHA


i love what this day brought me, even the rose foot and the bruises.HAHA~ I so love my friends. thank you, JP,faye,jers.. for making this day GREAT!


and to Jessie.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

VERY IMPORTANT PERSON----AKO?!

Posted by yuki on Jan 7, '08 8:51 AM for everyone

I don't know if I EVER deserve this---being praised. being important. being special.

I wasn't in the mood to go to school. Don't get me wrong, my goals are still straight (still wanted to pursue college and finish off and be a successful woman with a type-A job) but, one of the MOST and MY OWN dilemmas in school---getting up early!

Wala ako sa mood. Lalo na when I stepped in the school late, may surprise pa! **taran! EXAM sa Communication Values and Ethics! Even though, I scanned my notes last night, whoa. wala padin ako naalala. poor me. err.

Then I got text message pa from my prof in NSTP who also been the AS head to see her. Natakot ako. For the fist thing that I think what about is the cheering competition.

For weeks and weeks, my prof is bugging me (not to metion with Mark, JP, Mikee, Ahrae.. and almost the whole AbCOMM class) to be part of the Blue Phoenix Squad.

I AM HESITANT. nde ako good dancer. I dance, yessss. but, see, I only do the "basics". I don't break-dance. I can't even do the cramping. Isa pa, i don't wanna be a FLYERRR. ung ihahagis hagis sa ere na parang walang pangarap mabuhay pa.NO way! am not taking any rist here, specially, lima lng ang lalaki nila!HAHA.lol.XD

But, It's not about the "bugging" of being part of the squad. EVEN MORE.

ma'am Arlene: Bakit kasama mo si mark?

ME: ewan ko po jan. sumama pa.

Mark: ma'am oh, ayaw sumali sa cheering!

ME: ha?ayoko po!Ayoko ng hinahagis!No way!

Mark: edi, wag nlng. dancer nlng. (dinilaan ko s'ya.)

ME: ayoko umuwi ng maaga

Mark: hahatid kita.

Ma'am Arlene: un lng ba ang problema? s'ya. hahatid ka ni Mark gabi gabi.

DI AKO SUMAGOT.

ma'am Arlene: Hindi nman yun ung dahilan why I called you. (whew!wat a relief!THANK GOD!)
ma'am Arlene: Alam mo, ikaw lng ung naiisip kong kaya gawin to. (ooops?) You have to do the chant.


PAUSE.
What's going in my mind?
---ANU YUNG CHANT? (enters Enchanted movie we're planning to watch this friday) OH,silly.


ma'am Arlene: you have to make the chant for the AS. ikaw lng tlga maasahan ko. please come. (anu ngang CHANT?haha)

Mark: chant? yung mga cheers? parang yell? (woah!talino!kaw na)

ME: aah, yun po?

ma'am Arlene: yesss. i need your help.bla.bla.bla. come later at 5:30

ME: (5:30!half day ako ngyn ah?omg!) ocge po. (sigh.asar.)

Mark:yey!pupunta s'ya sa practise!

ME: frowning.

Sobra. I can't believe it. I have to make a "CHANT" for the whole AS department. Naisip ko kagad ung failure. Alam ko, mali ung part na ung ng pagiisip ko, but, you can't blame me! What if I did the super musshy kornee one? i'm busted. Sobrang nagisip ako. Paranga yoko na!Bakit ba ako pa?

6:00pm (5:30 dw sabi ni ma'am!LATE again!hahaXD )

I saw the whole squad dun sa room, nag wawarm up. nakita ko din si HAHA.bsta, xa. He looks good.waha.XD umupo ako sa tabi nia mam. She smiled at me.

Ma'am Arlene: I texted you. Eto ka na pla.

I smiled.

Ma'am Arlene is going to make "shame" of me in. 3..2..1..

Ma'am: Guys. eto si Yuki. She's gonna do our chant. Maling to. Nanalo kme sa NSTP day dahil s'ya ang scriptwriter. Super galing na writer. The future one.

lahat sila looking at me.Si Sammy ngumiti pa.CRAP.super. Ayoko tlga ng pinapraise. AYOKO. Ayoko yumabang and I feel like I don't deserve it. Parang, ewan. And this time, tska ko lng narealize, and laki pla ng tingin saken ni Ma'am. And to add to that, malaki ang expectations niya comming for me. BUHOS ANG PRESSURE SAKIN. oh,my. kaya ko ba?YUKI,takbooooooooooooooo.


sana nga, kaya ko tumakbo. pano?


I told my father about that at natuwa siya for the opportunity. I said I was really scared. Sabi niya, don't be, ask GOD FOR WiSDOM. kaya ko daw.


To be honest, yung script ng aming presentation last sem, super dala lng ng kalokohan ko. Feeling ko nga, di maaprubahan kasi, super kulit ng dating. I feel like, chamba lang lahay ng yun. And now, this is more!nakakaworry, pero naalala ko nanaman ung...


BREAKTHROUGH.. BREAKTHROUGH all the worry and pain.


Sabi nga ni Bro. Joel, SEIZE every opportunity.


May God help me with this.
He gave me the talents I have.
All the praises are all due to HIM. and only HIM. c:

g'nayt guys.. c")
there's a more tomorow. (antok na ako eh. 9:52!himala.maaga na un c:)


"IT's only today that I ever felt I was EVEN more special than I thought. Thanks for all the people who contributed to it. It really means a lot coming from all of you."
---yuki c:

hapee 08!

Posted by yuki on Jan 3, '08 4:48 AM for everyone

it's new year.

i have new skin (blog skin!not my own skin.haha.)

i have a renewed life.

i need some adjustments for i have new decisions.

i want to take a different direction this year. I am over my self-pity and some kind of mysery thing,. I just wanted to be my self and to make some adjustments in my life.

This is not a NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION--for i don't do them. These are the things I've realize I'll be better off and be productive with.

---I wanted to grow in faith. To serve God and do my purpose in life (thanks for the YOUTH SUMMIT for me to realize that I am being lost.)

---I wanted to forget the RED "thing" haha. NO, not love. it's red, but not that. HAHA. basta, ahrae told me, it's better off. so, this year, I'll be living a life withouht it and besides, GREEN is my fave color na.haha.

---I wanted to have a deeper relationship with my (new and specially the OLD) friends. Kasi, I feel like, something wrong is going on, but... I'm hoping I'm wrong.

---I wanted to be the new YUKI c: I don't know how, but.. it'll just show.

basta.

HAPEE 08!

(sorry...medjo magulo post ko!)

COOL TO BE MISERABLE?

Posted by yuki on Dec 23, '07 8:25 AM for everyone

Please tell me you're just feeling tired
i fear i must break
out of touch, out of time


lines seems familiar? They are the lines from the song 'Again I Go Unnoticed' by Dash board Confessional. Well, who doesn't know that emo band? The Used, Girls Like Boys and Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, to add some examples. Don't forget paramore and the ever famous Fall Out Boy.


Seems like, in the age today, the songs these 'emo' or the original term 'emotional-hard-core' music are ever popular to the youth. These lyrics that contains self-pity and as the genre states, all emotional words and full of feelings.


Today, you're not cool if you're not emo. Not with the thick eye liner, the one side bangs, the think realm glasses, skinny jeans, converse, knowing all kinds of emo bands and be (or pretend to be) miserable.

IN THIS AGE, IT IS TOO COOL TO ME MISERABLE?


because of these emo music and trend, people try to be "miserable" to be 'depressed' and to be all suicidal.


Now a days, i saw some pictures in friendster, the number one social network online in the Philippines (who doesn't know that? x) ) about some teens, taking suicide and posting the pictures of their risk all swollen and bloods. I was thinking, they were only doing all this stuffs to get to the trend. to look miserable thus, being cool.


I am not an exception here. I was, also hooked up with this new trend. I love the emo fashion. I love the music but I know where the boundaries are. I was sure about my self that killing my self isn't cool. (and I was afraid to try cutting XD).


The EMO-trend isn't bad. Some people just exaggerate it. Some feels like being at the dark side is good. Well, i tell you my friend... it's not.

the greatest mystery: WHY AM I STILL ALIVE?

Posted by yuki on Dec 13, '07 8:38 AM for everyone

Every second…
there’s someone dies out there.
You’re sitting in front of me,
enjoying every breath you take.
It’s life greatest mystery.
You have you be thankful of.

-Mr. Antonio Singh

Every word is lingered in my head. Every time I shut my eyes at night and how I slowly open it every morning, I remember that lexis. It’s such a mystery why I am still breathing when millions of people out there run out of air to respire.

I know the world would run. The sun will shine. The rivers flow. The Stars shines… even without ME.

That’s why I kept thanking God for every chance He gave and would be giving me. Chance to live life to the fullest. Experiencing every pain. Appreciate every person. Spreading love.

For living today and have posted this, it’s a Mystery.
A Mystery which maybe vague today but would be answered someday. c:

THE PRIDE IS THE CURSE

Posted by yuki on Nov 22, '07 7:57 AM for everyone

"COME ON. GIVE ME A SON"
-rendell's mother (angelina Jolie)

Last wednesday, we (Rapee,zai,piolo&me) watched Beowulf instead of One more chance. Waha. At last, I've won. lol. XD

At first, we thought, it wasn't Beowulf. The movie was "cartoonized" as we may call it (but it wasn't really cartoon, it was 3D). We were the noisiest people inside the cinema as we talked loudly, "Beowulf ba yan! Bakit ganyan?"

I kept on telling them to speak gently for others may think, BANO kme. waha.

The movie was bloody. All through out, blood was rushing here and then. But, it was cool watching it. Truly, a man can't resist temptation especially when it's a woman tempting them. So, guys.. beware.waha:D

I've enjoy the experience though pag uwi, wala ng laman ung pocket ko. HAHA! xD kulang na kulang ang dala naming pera. but anyhow, kahit gipit or shoul I say kapag gipit, dun kme mas nagiging masaya!HAHA.xD

i've got nothing more to say but, WATCH IT.. you're 90php is Worth it (plugs.waha.xD).

BTW, a picture is taken sa sinehan. HAHA.yeah. that's right. JERS took it using his phone.(but, am gonna post it in the gallery next time) *applause*. waha. xD

art of letting go...

Posted by yuki on Nov 22, '07 7:36 AM for everyone

As this sem enters, I begin to learn one of the hardest things you'll encounter in your existence. And as for me, it is only be taught by experiences---the art of letting go.

It's just a week since this semester opens and in that few days that I'm having, I am continually learning. I began to know what I should keep and what to let go.

FRIENDSHIP. It's hard to let go of a person you've been with all your life (or even just a part of it). Sabi nga ni jers, ngayon lng nde nag work ang isang riendship for me, or in other words, ngyn lng dw nde nag tagal ang isang kaybigan. But, I beg to disagree.

I've been dumped and experienced be alone couple of times before.

When I was in elementary nga, I usually be on my own until I've got a friend who taught me how to be active, to be cheerful and see the brightness in life. I don't know where she is now, but... all I am today, part of it was because of her. (if ever you're reading this.. thank you!)

After that, almost year after year... I experienced lost friendship. And I realized that the person you least believe who won't leave you is the one who will.

And now, am going thought, "friendship crisis" again.

I don't know why I'm being cold. Siguro, ayoko lang sa mga liars. I believe, friendship is built on trust.. andmy trust is lost. It's hard to be found.

I don't want everything to end just like this, so, for now... I'm determining is this's one worth keeping or it's better to let go.


RELATIONSHIP

Remember my last post? It's a crap.

The day after it, I found my self in one classroom as that person is.

How can I move forward?

This morning, I also deleted some of my contacts... and after it, someone just "contacted" me.

How can I let go?

It's hard. But, I'm trying. I'm on it.. and I won't let these msgs or this class ruined everything. I don't wanna see my self on a rocking chair and pretending that I am moving but the truth is, I'm not going anywhere.

I can let go of this.

YES.i can.

SCHOOL.Iniiwasan ko si Sir SINGH (the most terror among terrors prof living. waha. XD) so, I dropped my theo subject and selected another section.. but guess what?

SIYA PARIN ANG PROF KO!

after all that adding and dropping and paying of 50php... it's all worthless. He still been my prof.

When he came, I feel like, what's going on? And I don't know how to react, but one good thing he brought mt is my attitude toward HIM. He challenged me to do better the first sem and show him what I've got.

I'm happy that this sem, am really on studying (believe it or not!). Am not sure what drives or what stimuli cause it, but I am hungry to study! HAHA. this aint me. lol, :D

surely, letting go of the past makes it easier for me to do the best that I know I can. I've erased all the pain inside me and just accept every bits of the truth.

Letting go is one best thing I did... that why I've learned to move forward.

IT's NOT BAD AFTER ALL.waha. =)

shark hair + red jaket + green flip flops + bag printed wid skulls + N6600 + black nails = GOOD BYE. ='c

Posted by yuki on Nov 16, '07 8:37 AM for everyone

Arrivederci. Auf Wiedersehen. Le'hitraot. Zoi Geen. Sayonara. Goodbye. PAALAM.

Whatever language i use, it boils down into one thing---to let go.

I know it's hard letting go.

But I'll just pretend not to feel anything.. to be NUMB perhaps. pretend that YOU don't exist or you didn't came and stole everything. I'll just pretend that I didn't saw you on that jeepney and gave a smirk. I'll act as if you're not the person who was laughing with friends while looking at the camera.. while making me feel that I was STUPID.

I'll pretend until I get tired of it.


So that One day, when I woke up, I'll realize it's part of the past already. Some of those forgotten memory.

From now on, you'll be on your own. get lost. get a life and don't let me in... again.

for you, CIAO*

kakakakagat na...LOL.

Posted by yuki on Nov 12, '07 6:24 AM for everyone


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i almost forgot i have a page opened in multiply.waha.

..am about to post but, hell, i can't leave YOUTUBE. Believe it or not, am watching slum dunk. HAHA. i really like it and too bad i miss the whole show.

am just gonna watch for a sec,ayt?!..

(let me be a kid even ONCE.lol)

*watches*

HAHA.it's really funny. =)) anyway, am going to start my blog just before I start viewing the next chapie again.

FIRST DAY of SECOND SEM.

it's funny that i've miss them all more than what i could imagine. And entering the classroom and be welcomed with a big hug was great. so great that i feel important in the midst of those people.

Maraming bago. Most babae. Lagi nman eh. Well, anyway... it's okay . At least db, new friends. HAHA. it's kinda weird na mei kasama kaming KOREAN na in the age of being a father. But it was great kc, xa ung nagsisilibing "tatay" ng aming course. Mr.Lee was nice. Ung mga anak nia was in CSI. I told him, "Hey, am from CSi" and he sang, "God Bless Christian School International.." HAHA! How I miss our CSI hymn. He also laughs when Jp asked him to do KAGAT LABI.haha.

Speaking of which, umarangkada nnman ang kakulitan ni Pi (jp). Laht ng bago, he would come near them as ask them to do the KAGATLABI.ahaha. so funny =) kahit medjo nilulugi nmen xa at times, He was really a good person blessed with HUMOR.ahaha.

I really miss those kulitan moments kea nga ba, super todo ung mga pakulo ng ABCOM. kaso, you know, nasasabihan nnman na we're such "immature people" I can only say two words, "SO WHAT?"

People love us nman. You see, super puno kame every section kc everyone na kilala nmen, kumukuha ng subject sa kors nmen. ganun nila kami ka love. HAHA. Nakakatawa nga sa Comarts that, mei mga ABCOMM na naubusan ng slot and y? because of the seminarians, comsci at ung c kuya "filipino" (kc klasmeyt ko xa sa fil dati.AHAha). so funny and overwhelming =)

It was great seing those people again.

KUNG lumipat man ako, i'll surely miss them. REALLY. ='c

But, am not thinking that way pa. It's too early to be sad about things ahead of us. I guess, ieenjoy ko muna na am with them. 'Coz with those people, I found a family. ^^

PS.

~i miss you SEONG-seong (nde xa pumasok)!

~i miss you ANJ!teteks kita whenever.

~i miss pogs?HAHA.you wish.lol.

missin' so many people,
----yuki

*watches again*
(pagbigayan ang ISIP bata)

POSTing---

*watches*=)

REEEAD FIRST!

[[starting this post, they're all delayed POSTS kasi, i forgot my password here (i know, I'm that stupid.waha.this and the following posts are from my multiply account. c: ]]