paperdoll's closet: MY FRUSTRATIONS...

Believe me or not, I am a frustrated singer when I was younger. Like, when I was fifteen. LOL!XD actually, I was when I was about eight to nine or even seven unto six. Around that age.

I remember pa that time na uso pa ang cassette tapes, I usually, sing and record my voice and send it to my mother in Japan. I was always singing April Boy Regino’s hit songs (now, you could just imagine how baduy I was back then.haha) and some animae song like,

Tato…ni ana shita ni nomo..BLA.BLA (tama ba? Basta, ung sa voltes five.)

And ung sa doemon, I am always singing them, and the end of the recording, I would sing the super “gas-gas” song…

Mama, I love you…
Mama, I care…
Mama, I need you…
Mama, oh, yeah.

And it ends my little show. Back then, kala ko, kahit sino ka man, pede kang kumanta but when I got into my senses that only people who are gifted with nice voice are the only once who has the “right to sing”, I quit my ever frustration.

If you thought it ends there… you’re dead wrong!

I was also a frustrated artist. I would always sit in the terrace and draw anything I wanted and then one day, I did draw something that looked like a thing. Kasi, nuon, kahit anung idrawing ko—puno, tao, tiger, pusa.. they all looked like an ipis.. pero, iba tlga to.

I tried copying a shoes. A giant shoes in one of the page of my book. Then, saw stunned when it turned looking a like.

“Tatay!Tatay!tiganan mO!” I was really proud of it and showed it to my grand father (I call him Tatay.) and he just smiled at me. I was so happy.

Since then, I never stopped drawing. I draw almost everything. Siguro kulang nalang, i-drawing ko ung sarili ko. And since then, drawing nalang ung sinesend ko kay mama. This time, my frustrations turned fine. Super saya! C:

About writing, it also started something like my singing and my drawing—a desire. When I read the story my friend made back in sixth grade, I was so jealous! My work was a disaster but just before that, I have a short story made for my Reading class in fifth grade but I lost my notebook. It was in the moment I’ve read my friend’s piece when I told my self, Nakagawa na ako ng ganayan. Nawala lang. I want to do more of that. I want to write to!

So, everyday, sulat ako.. but not literal, I type in in the computer all the stuffs and save them, nde pa uso friendster so, and use lng ng computer is to type, print and to look at it and bore your self just looking at the screen.

This is the best frustration I had. As in after it, ito ung naging passion ko… writing is the best thing God gave me for when I write, I am at ease. I feel really at home.HAHA!

So, GTG na. this post is taking me like forever, Napasarap sa pag reminisce. Wala pa akong dream book!OMG!lagot!wala pa din akong research draft sa ComA.. OH.!blag!blag! ayoooko nap la mag bukas.LOL.

G”NAYT…