VERY IMPORTANT PERSON----AKO?!

Posted by yuki on Jan 7, '08 8:51 AM for everyone

I don't know if I EVER deserve this---being praised. being important. being special.

I wasn't in the mood to go to school. Don't get me wrong, my goals are still straight (still wanted to pursue college and finish off and be a successful woman with a type-A job) but, one of the MOST and MY OWN dilemmas in school---getting up early!

Wala ako sa mood. Lalo na when I stepped in the school late, may surprise pa! **taran! EXAM sa Communication Values and Ethics! Even though, I scanned my notes last night, whoa. wala padin ako naalala. poor me. err.

Then I got text message pa from my prof in NSTP who also been the AS head to see her. Natakot ako. For the fist thing that I think what about is the cheering competition.

For weeks and weeks, my prof is bugging me (not to metion with Mark, JP, Mikee, Ahrae.. and almost the whole AbCOMM class) to be part of the Blue Phoenix Squad.

I AM HESITANT. nde ako good dancer. I dance, yessss. but, see, I only do the "basics". I don't break-dance. I can't even do the cramping. Isa pa, i don't wanna be a FLYERRR. ung ihahagis hagis sa ere na parang walang pangarap mabuhay pa.NO way! am not taking any rist here, specially, lima lng ang lalaki nila!HAHA.lol.XD

But, It's not about the "bugging" of being part of the squad. EVEN MORE.

ma'am Arlene: Bakit kasama mo si mark?

ME: ewan ko po jan. sumama pa.

Mark: ma'am oh, ayaw sumali sa cheering!

ME: ha?ayoko po!Ayoko ng hinahagis!No way!

Mark: edi, wag nlng. dancer nlng. (dinilaan ko s'ya.)

ME: ayoko umuwi ng maaga

Mark: hahatid kita.

Ma'am Arlene: un lng ba ang problema? s'ya. hahatid ka ni Mark gabi gabi.

DI AKO SUMAGOT.

ma'am Arlene: Hindi nman yun ung dahilan why I called you. (whew!wat a relief!THANK GOD!)
ma'am Arlene: Alam mo, ikaw lng ung naiisip kong kaya gawin to. (ooops?) You have to do the chant.


PAUSE.
What's going in my mind?
---ANU YUNG CHANT? (enters Enchanted movie we're planning to watch this friday) OH,silly.


ma'am Arlene: you have to make the chant for the AS. ikaw lng tlga maasahan ko. please come. (anu ngang CHANT?haha)

Mark: chant? yung mga cheers? parang yell? (woah!talino!kaw na)

ME: aah, yun po?

ma'am Arlene: yesss. i need your help.bla.bla.bla. come later at 5:30

ME: (5:30!half day ako ngyn ah?omg!) ocge po. (sigh.asar.)

Mark:yey!pupunta s'ya sa practise!

ME: frowning.

Sobra. I can't believe it. I have to make a "CHANT" for the whole AS department. Naisip ko kagad ung failure. Alam ko, mali ung part na ung ng pagiisip ko, but, you can't blame me! What if I did the super musshy kornee one? i'm busted. Sobrang nagisip ako. Paranga yoko na!Bakit ba ako pa?

6:00pm (5:30 dw sabi ni ma'am!LATE again!hahaXD )

I saw the whole squad dun sa room, nag wawarm up. nakita ko din si HAHA.bsta, xa. He looks good.waha.XD umupo ako sa tabi nia mam. She smiled at me.

Ma'am Arlene: I texted you. Eto ka na pla.

I smiled.

Ma'am Arlene is going to make "shame" of me in. 3..2..1..

Ma'am: Guys. eto si Yuki. She's gonna do our chant. Maling to. Nanalo kme sa NSTP day dahil s'ya ang scriptwriter. Super galing na writer. The future one.

lahat sila looking at me.Si Sammy ngumiti pa.CRAP.super. Ayoko tlga ng pinapraise. AYOKO. Ayoko yumabang and I feel like I don't deserve it. Parang, ewan. And this time, tska ko lng narealize, and laki pla ng tingin saken ni Ma'am. And to add to that, malaki ang expectations niya comming for me. BUHOS ANG PRESSURE SAKIN. oh,my. kaya ko ba?YUKI,takbooooooooooooooo.


sana nga, kaya ko tumakbo. pano?


I told my father about that at natuwa siya for the opportunity. I said I was really scared. Sabi niya, don't be, ask GOD FOR WiSDOM. kaya ko daw.


To be honest, yung script ng aming presentation last sem, super dala lng ng kalokohan ko. Feeling ko nga, di maaprubahan kasi, super kulit ng dating. I feel like, chamba lang lahay ng yun. And now, this is more!nakakaworry, pero naalala ko nanaman ung...


BREAKTHROUGH.. BREAKTHROUGH all the worry and pain.


Sabi nga ni Bro. Joel, SEIZE every opportunity.


May God help me with this.
He gave me the talents I have.
All the praises are all due to HIM. and only HIM. c:

g'nayt guys.. c")
there's a more tomorow. (antok na ako eh. 9:52!himala.maaga na un c:)


"IT's only today that I ever felt I was EVEN more special than I thought. Thanks for all the people who contributed to it. It really means a lot coming from all of you."
---yuki c: