art of letting go...

Posted by yuki on Nov 22, '07 7:36 AM for everyone

As this sem enters, I begin to learn one of the hardest things you'll encounter in your existence. And as for me, it is only be taught by experiences---the art of letting go.

It's just a week since this semester opens and in that few days that I'm having, I am continually learning. I began to know what I should keep and what to let go.

FRIENDSHIP. It's hard to let go of a person you've been with all your life (or even just a part of it). Sabi nga ni jers, ngayon lng nde nag work ang isang riendship for me, or in other words, ngyn lng dw nde nag tagal ang isang kaybigan. But, I beg to disagree.

I've been dumped and experienced be alone couple of times before.

When I was in elementary nga, I usually be on my own until I've got a friend who taught me how to be active, to be cheerful and see the brightness in life. I don't know where she is now, but... all I am today, part of it was because of her. (if ever you're reading this.. thank you!)

After that, almost year after year... I experienced lost friendship. And I realized that the person you least believe who won't leave you is the one who will.

And now, am going thought, "friendship crisis" again.

I don't know why I'm being cold. Siguro, ayoko lang sa mga liars. I believe, friendship is built on trust.. andmy trust is lost. It's hard to be found.

I don't want everything to end just like this, so, for now... I'm determining is this's one worth keeping or it's better to let go.


RELATIONSHIP

Remember my last post? It's a crap.

The day after it, I found my self in one classroom as that person is.

How can I move forward?

This morning, I also deleted some of my contacts... and after it, someone just "contacted" me.

How can I let go?

It's hard. But, I'm trying. I'm on it.. and I won't let these msgs or this class ruined everything. I don't wanna see my self on a rocking chair and pretending that I am moving but the truth is, I'm not going anywhere.

I can let go of this.

YES.i can.

SCHOOL.Iniiwasan ko si Sir SINGH (the most terror among terrors prof living. waha. XD) so, I dropped my theo subject and selected another section.. but guess what?

SIYA PARIN ANG PROF KO!

after all that adding and dropping and paying of 50php... it's all worthless. He still been my prof.

When he came, I feel like, what's going on? And I don't know how to react, but one good thing he brought mt is my attitude toward HIM. He challenged me to do better the first sem and show him what I've got.

I'm happy that this sem, am really on studying (believe it or not!). Am not sure what drives or what stimuli cause it, but I am hungry to study! HAHA. this aint me. lol, :D

surely, letting go of the past makes it easier for me to do the best that I know I can. I've erased all the pain inside me and just accept every bits of the truth.

Letting go is one best thing I did... that why I've learned to move forward.

IT's NOT BAD AFTER ALL.waha. =)